Life feels overwhelming at the moment.
At the end of every week, I find myself muttering, “oh, what a week.” Week after week after week.
I am currently working a hybrid schedule, where I work in the office 50% time and at home 50% time. This has certainly been an adjustment, but I am enjoying my time in office as well as maintaining time at home.
My oldest is in half-day kindergarten, which means I pick him up at 11am on the days I am working at home.
My younger two are in preschool all day.
An Overwhelming Week
This past week I was on standby for jury duty, my youngest two could not go to preschool due to a cough, and my oldest was having some hard days at school. Our schedule and routine was thrown out the window. I was changing poop diapers while on a work Zoom meeting. I was walking away from work Zoom meetings to break up wrestling matches on my bed. My oldest two had their annual check-ups on the same day.
The sink piled up. The laundry is strewn on the floors from bedrooms through hallways to the laundry room.
Our living room has exploded with toys.
This disarray of our home accurately reflects the chaos that occupies my mind.
With all that life has for us at the moment, I can’t seem to catch my breath. I sat at my table attempting my best at simultaneous work and motherhood surrounded in chaos, tears in my eyes, and lightly whispered, “I can’t go on like this.”
I can’t go on like this.
Those words have echoed in my head for several days.
I’m tired. A soul-deep kind of tired.
And there is only one solution to that kind of tired.
If life is overwhelming at the moment, please know you are not alone. If you feel comfortable, comment anything below in solidarity with those in this boat.
And then pray these words with me.
God, when life feels out of control, help us hold onto the truth that you are always in control. When we feel overwhelmed and burdened, guide us back to you for rest. God, we need you. We need you not just in the big things of life, but in the everyday moments. Guide us to lean on you for every moment of the day. You are near those who love you. Thank you, Lord. Thank you for loving us so much that we are never alone. Amen.
This is most certainly not the first time life has felt utterly overwhelming. It will definitely not be the last.
We will get through this… taking it one day at a time.